Dysfunction, though often thwarted by your conscience mind, will rise up at the most unexpected moments and grab a hold of your psyche like a tiger rushes in from behind and latches on, it’s claws digging deep and securing in the most tender places, the most vulnerable. For a little while we are held captive in fear, anger, and helplessness until we finally dislodge each and every claw through introspection, counsel and patience. Understand this, you are not a lesser being because the harms of the past have imprinted on you and, though you bravely fight them, they come back to haunt and, sometimes, torture you. Be kind to yourself, be patient with your self, take care of yourself by examining each one of those claws carefully then gently removing them and remember the tiger isn’t nearly as fierce or ferocious or powerful as we have given him credit for being.
What we are fighting is the way others have managed to control us in the past. It could have been a parent, a sibling, a friend or a spouse/partner. They, in turn, are functioning from the same place, someone in their lives has either done the same thing to them or they have developed their method of control in response to that other person’s behaviors. It is literally “the sins of the father passed down from generation to generation” as the Bible says. Accumulative hurt, fear, anger and pain that started with Adam and Eve and continues with each of us. The question we all have to consider is this. Are we willing to go gently into that night and pass these behaviors on to those around us that we probably love and cherish? Are we willing to keep stepping forward in our dysfunction without looking because we are too afraid to see what we have done? Or are we willing to go forward into the light, into the truth of what is and accept responsibility for our actions and our thought processes, forgive ourselves and change our behaviors for the betterment of everyone, but mostly for ourselves? If there is a Satan, and I believe there is, he works in the little unseen ways of our every day lives and through those subconscious, subversive acts of pain and fear, he destroys us and those we love. If you want to start the journey to self control and a clean, non-dysfunctional life, I’ve listed several sites below to get you started. Keep this one thing in mind as you move forward in this commitment: Whatever the truth is you will not die and it will never be more than you can handle. That is the lie that keeps us where we are, don’t let it keep you from the peace and joy that awaits you.